Dear Crush/Current Significant Other.
Dear You,
You know this is you. A while ago I was writing in my private blog, the one only we know about and I felt so happy. I don’t know why, you’re like miles and miles away. And we don’t talk every day, and everytime we talk, we don’t have meaningful conversations. We just say “I miss you” and “Let’s talk soon” it’s such a cliche. I mean, yeah they’re true. But what else is there to say? I miss you and I love updating you of my life because it makes me feel loved again. I feel like even though we’re not committed or anything, there’s a bond between us and that makes me a much better person.
I don’t know how long this would last. Eventually, you might find someone who can be there for you, and I would be nothing but a mere memory, but I don’t want that. I want to be the girl who makes you laugh like before. The one who would take your bag and sit on it just because the grass was wet. The one who would ride swings and slides with you on the preschool playground because that’s the only safe place we have. I want to be that girl. That girl. The reason behind your smile.
I’m not informed of every single second of your life yet I don’t feel outdated. I feel like I’m still there with you, every day. But I’m still confused with what I’m feeling. We’re always saying we miss each other. But I never hear those three words anymore. Before you were so confident and it was so easy for you to say that you “love” me. But have I ever said that to you before? I’m confused.
I just want you to know, that you make me happy. And whatever we have right now, is special to me. I don’t care if it doesn’t progress into something greater, I’m just glad that we have this connection. I don’t know what’s next for us. But yeah, if you’re willing to wait, so will I.
I hope to see you soon,
Graxxie xx
